F.H.C. (Last December) [Lyrical]

[Verse 1]
I think about how I spent last December
And it's always on my mind
I'd pace around those white halls with white walls
They were always on my mind
I used to watch the sunrise through dull eyes to make them bright again
It never gave me enough time
I never thought I'd let them hurt me this much
They never gave me enough time

I packed my bags for just a mile away
It broke my heart to think I'd stay
To pray forgotten at their feet
I couldn't bear to hear them say, oh

[Chorus]
"You never even tried to save the life inside you
You never let them see you cry or hold you when it hurt
You always gave in first, but you were selfish, too"
Well let me tell you nothing's changed, and I'm still the same damn girl

[Verse 2]
I've hollowed out every part of me searching
For what I did to bring myself here
I realize this just isn't working
It wasn't me that brought it here
They told me that this is how I'd spend all my years
I told them that I wasn't blind
But if this is how memories feel through eyes in fear
Then I wish that I was blind

They packed my bags for a longer stay
I never guessed that this was how they'd make me pay
I prayed forgotten in the palms of their hands
It tore me up to hear them say, oh

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
They stole from me my sanity
My innocence, they tore from me
I kept time by streetlights
Those dim lights could never guide me
Days passed; I wouldn't last
There was no light as far as I could see
They took from me the one thing I believed:
That this wasn't really me

[Chorus]

I think about the coldest of Decembers
And it never leaves my mind